my fears

I feared being alone
until I learned to like
myself.

I feared failure
until I realized that I only
fail when I don't try.

I feared success
until I realized
that I had to try
in order to be happy
with myself.

I feared people's opinions
until I learned that
people would have opinions
about me anyway.

I feared rejection
until I learned to
have faith in myself.

I feared pain
until I learned that
it's necessary
for growth.

I feared the truth
until I saw the
ugliness in lies.

I feared life
until I experienced
its beauty.

I feared death
until I realized that it's
not an end, but a beginning.

I feared my destiny,
until I realized that
I had the power to change
my life.

I feared hate
until I saw that it
was nothing more than
ignorance.

I feared love
until it touched my heart,
making the darkness fade
into endless sunny days.

I feared ridicule
until I learned how
to laugh at myself.

I feared growing old
until I realized that
I gained wisdom every day.

I feared the future
until I realized that
life just kept getting
better.

I feared the past
until I realized that
it could no longer hurt me.

I feared the dark
until I saw the beauty
of the starlight.

I feared the light
until I learned that the
truth would give me
strength.

I feared change,
until I saw that
even the most beautiful butterfly
had to undergo a metamorphosis
before it could fly

because of you

Because of You

Each day I wake and see you there,
I watch you breathe and stroke your hair.
You rustle oh so peacefully,
for somehow you can sense it's me.

Slip out of bed, and have my cup,
of coffee trying to wake up.
Down to the den to my old chair,
and ponder while I'm sitting there.

Why has my life so changed with you?
My every hope and dream come true.
Simple fate or just pure chance?
I don't believe in happenstance.

A greater power, much stronger than,
any power known to man.
Has brought me you, down from the sky.
and to this day I don't know why.

But "Because of You" I feel complete,
a happiness I can't retreat.
You've brought new meaning to my life,
I hope that you will be my Wife.

You make me proud, by compliment,
my smallest task or non-event.
A man should feel this way I sense,
yet so few do in self defense.

Much wasted time has passed before,
in days an empty pointless score.
But "Because of You" and all you give,
I now have purpose, Now I live.

My vow to you oh Princess Dear,
to love your soul each night and day.
Not take for granted your gift of love,
forsake reward from God above.

Forever thankful through and through,
a blessed man, "Because of You"


"To Loose you is to Never Love Again"....

angel

Angel

On weary wings I take my flight
To lofty cloudy streaked sky.
Higher into star-filled night
My burdened soul did fly.

Below me now I see the waves
That crash upon the sand.
They seem to me as helpless slaves
Of Neptune's ocean hand.

I think of how I seem to be
A slave in that same way.
With tear stained cheeks
I clearly see the price that I must pay.

And then amidst my sorrow still
I plant my thoughts on you,
And sunshine fills the darkened sky
Birthing it anew.

Water glistens. Gulls fly
In skies now warm and bright,
And suddenly I realize
That you are the source of light.

I watch as still you brighter grow
And cast your light askew.
All at once the heavens glow
With a light that I call "YOU".

I watch a rosebud open up
To drink your beams of love.
Its tender petals spread to sup
The warmth cast from above.

A smile emerges upon my face
As then it dawns on me
That I can bask in an angel's grace.
It is she who set me free.

So my angel, take your flight
Into my life undone.
Mend the pieces of my broken heart,
And make them whole, as one.

Oh my angel, you are to me
A beacon in the night.
A shining star for me to see.
So guide me by your light.

Just love me angel. Be so true.
Stay strong and never sway,
And all my life I'll look after you
And love you every day...

love or success

"Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content enough that it grew in yours."

Last May 2007 I and my ex GF Elaine broke up...It isn't because we didn't love each other anymore, but mainly because we have to prioritize one thing...the FUTURE... just like any other professionals, we are giving much importance on our career...and most of the time LOVE and CAREER clash...we cannot be a servant of two masters, we must give up one aspect of our life, so we can focus on the more important aspect...and while we are doing our best to be successfull in our lives...

This is what I learned from that break up...

Everyone wants success; yet, we often don't know when we have it. For most, success is the desire for a ''better life'', or more quantities or richness; however, success is not much on material wealth. It is not to be sought in the outside world, but discovered within. It is kindness shared, support given, and love sought. Success matters most when pain enters our lives. Pain hurts; yet, we must remember that when tears are on the outside, healing is on the inside. Success will take us where we want to go; however, the designated driver of success lies somewhere hidden deep in the mysteries of love...

We can hide the pain that you feel and make others believe that we can move on. But we can never deny the truth to ourselves that the person who has failed us and hurt us the most is still the person we’ll always choose to love...and sometimes the hardest thing we have to do is the best thing for us.

As my ex once said "Love is like a butterfly, the more you chase it, the more it eludes you, but if you are calm and still it will land in you lap at a time you never expect it..."

Now, I have found a new love...I never expected she would come...I never ask for her to come, but she did....

how to appease your partner

sumtimes we forget that our partner are also our frens.. we forget to be korni and kikay/kikoy to them.. forget to say thank you.. sorry.. pls..or just any sweet nothings that will somehow appease them.

but then again, it is true, we also gotta be tactical with our words.. diplomatic with the things we say if we want PEACE and lasting happiness...hehehehe!!

In order to have a moment of serenity.. a small gesture will get u a long way... a minute of effort.. will bring u great joy..so may as well..


so.. an advise to my fellow machos.. go out and play with ur gurl.. just say a few sweet little nothings to her... update her on ur whereabouts.. call her occasionally.. SMS them just to say Hi!.. and then when HOME...tell them you're HOME...little korni things...but will have a great result...and your relationship will bloom

advise to felines out there...go out play with your guy.. learn the art of teasing your man..hehehe.. ur bf wana go to pub.. or ktv or disco sometimes.. let them go without a NAG... update them when u leave office or home.. reach dinner place...treat them for lunch sometimes...update on the songs they're playing.. update them on who is there with u ... and tell them u MISS them....

...little childish act that will be of great help for the relationships to truly flourish...

just banish

Why a beautiful thing must be left with goodbye
That even heaven weep above the sky?
Why have to end the happy moments
Of a young heart that's fulfilled with thy scents?

Why there is love when not in time?
Far from dreams of life's prime.
Why sacrifice, why pain, why hurt?
Sentimental feelings that kill one's heart.

Why not endless when with you?
Forever in my arms I'll craddle you.
Why there is you and just a dream?
Only can be real when dreams are all gone.

Why have to go, why not stay?
Why so many why's in this life to cherish?
That when you leave,
The answers just vanish?...

ron:)

letting go

People don't let go because they get something out of it, whether its negative or positive. The thing or the person you are attached to fulfills a need. And the fulfillment arrived from the attachment is stronger than the motivation to let go.

Letting go does not mean losing or having to give something up. Letting go is simply making a decision-- no longer to allow something from the past to influence your life now or to reduce your inner sense of peace and well being. Holding on causes tension and restricts freedom. All we need to do is to let go of the beliefs and attitudes that prevent us from experiencing the joy of the moment. Clinging on to something-- whether its an emotion, a relationship, a person, or a belief prevents us from being in the here and the now.


Ron:)

all about my wife

This is all about my wife. How i want her to be ..

She would be one of simplicity.
She would not be a queen or a king's daughter but a woman of feminity.
She would not be rich but have a heart of gold
She will be kind enough to feed another person's hunger.
She is someone whose eyes will only see me as a man
She is classy in her way and yeilds power within her fingertips
She will be full of shyness and culture will bound her.
Her great traditions will rule her and she will be a woman of patience, love, kindness, and heart.
Her arrogance will be my pride.
Her beauty will be my asset.
Her heart will be my mine
Her love will be my breath

and below is about my bride....

Her lotus like face will encover her beauty as a veil
Her slim and slender fingers would make her rings slip and fall
The sound of her glass bangles would ring my attention
The anklets on her feet would announce her presence
Her red silk saree which drapes her will move her
The jasmine flowers on her scenting hair will make even bees not to drink the honey from them
Her diamond nose stud will shine as though it was where light originated from.
Her henna on her hands would spell her love for me.
My bride will come as a flower who bloomed in the garden of beauty in the mt. of happiness
Any other women would envy her.
Her tumeric face facing the floor as she arrives at my door.
Knocking over the pot of rice, bringing in good luck to my household, as she arrives in..with her right feet over, her head will stand strong and up.
She will be the empress of my heart, the queen of my household, the angel of my life.
My wife, my long awaited Radha of my Empire...

Who will she be?...


ron...

divine connection

A perfect partner in life is someone who can be with you and talk about anything without realizing that the day was over...

Someone who will always listen and feel twice the joy you feel or the pain you're going through...

When you start to feel that "DIVINE CONNECTION" between you, never let it GO!..for there is more to companionship than to love alone....

In the end, when all else fails and are consumed, you will always hold on to those times when you don't even need to say or hear the wrds "I LOVE YOU!"..

tears

"Real tears are not those that fall
from the eyes and covers the face,
but those that fall from the heart and
covers the soul".