stupid emotions

There's a love inside me,
that seems to stay forever.
I don't wanna be like this,
I know I can go yet I wanna stay.

A matter of choice
which I played for years.
Havin' thoughts to choose
what's the best for me.

Yet It's hounting me,
where I can subtend my feelings?

Im overjoyed, but suppressed by sorrow.
Wishing someone could save me, from here.
Questions leaving my head,
"when can I go home?"
And hoping to be love again.

My eyes are not open,
'cos Im scared to see the reality.
That I can't bring my past,
and try things one more time.

Loving her is the most
selfish thing that I've ever made,
For myself.
And I couldn't take the blame on her,
not on her but me.

Im overjoyed but suppress by tears.
I know I should be over,
over from her.
Fears keep taunting me,
that's why I can't go home.

Scared to see and feel,
that I can't be loved again.

Im over joy but suppress by fears.
Rain had stopped but the dark clouds keeps waitin' for more.
Winds keeps crashing around the shadows of love.
and still I can't go home, to see and feel.
that I can love again..

ron:)

messing around

Human as we are, we make mistakes that we never desired to happen. When people came to judge us...however...thank you!! it simply shows the imperfection of this world and that we need to equip ourselves for more predicaments that would come........

though we strive for our goals...not everybody realized it...however, we strive more to reach it!! and i know that somewhere,somehow in the future-we would!!!


ron:)

for the last time

For The Last Time...

The first time I fell in love was long ago.
I didn't know how to give my love at all.
The next time, I settled for what felt so close.
But without love, you'll gonna fall.
After everything I've learned;
Now it's finally my turn.
This is the last time I'll fall...in love.
The first time we talked and listen to our songs, the moment when everything became clear.
I didn't need to ask or even wonder why, because each question is answered when your near.
and I'm wise enough to know when a miracle unfolds, this is the last time i'll fall in love.
Now don't hold back, just let me know.
Am I moving much too fast or way too slow.
'Cause all of my life, I've waited for you.
To find that once in a lifetime, this is it, I'll never be the same.
You'll never know what it's taken me to say these words.
And now that I've said them, they could never be enough.
As far as I can see, there's only YOU and ME.

This is the last time I'll fall in love

I LOVE YOU! More than you know.

Ron:)

wala lang

"Sometimes we need to take the risk to achieve what we want...And make mistakes to know where the right things is"

definition of love

philospical definition of LOVE...

Love doesn't need dates, treats, gifts, money or extreme kissin to realize that ur finally in love.
It only needs the comfort and security of having a lifetime friend in the person.
If despite all the consequences, the feeling does not die out, instead it grows stronger. It must be it.

usapang ulam

kumbaga sa pagkain, ang asawa ay isang espesyal at masarap na putahe na tanging ikaw lang ang puwedeng tumikim (hindi puwede ang iba, or else magkaka katayan). subalit espesyal man daw at masarap, kung araw araw mong pinapapak ay mauumay at magsasawa ka rin at minsan ay hahanapin ng iyong panlasa ang ibang mga exotic na ulam tulad ng sardinas,bagoong, kangkong, tuyo at galunggong...
"poor man's dishes"
one time lang, sawa ka na agad. pampa tanggal lang ng umay, 'ika nga nila...

a friend asked me minsang kumakain kami sa isang sikat na restaurant sa manama, bahrain.
"r0n, ang ganda ganda na ng asawa mo pare, pero bakit nagawa mo pang mambabae noong ikaw ay nagbakasyon? bakit pare?"
i told him "pare, parang ulam natin, masarap ang crispy tenderloin dipped in honey lemon sauce, with garden fresh salad in garlic-mayo toppings. di ba napapadami ang kain mo? pero nakaka umay din yan kapag madalas...kaya minsan di ba, naghahanap ka ng sardinas?...nagsawa ang panlasa ko sa sinigang na sugpo noon, kaya tumikim ako ng paksiw na galunggong. pero isinuka ko rin kasi "bilasa" na pala, hindi na siya fresh. sumakit lang ang tiyan ko...

well, hindi ako
"baleng" para ipagpalit ang bacon sa "bagoong". side dish lang un, "taste enhancer" kumbaga. katulad sa pag aasawa, magkakagulo kapag "tumikim" ka ng iba. parang bacon na iginisa sa bagoong, hindi match di ba? at siguradong sira ang timpla, papangit ang lasa...pero kapag naayos na ang problema, the relationship will become stronger and better than it was before:). parang ulam na muling sumasarap kapag ininit at tinimplahan ulit...but wait! nasabi ko na ba na mas bagay ang bagoong sa kangkong?...hindi sa bacon:]
perfect match sila, di ba? "bagoong at kangkong"...ang mahal nga sa chowking nun eh,
"exotic match", amoy na kumakapit at lasang uhhmm, nameeet!.."finger licking good". solve na solve ka talaga! pero side dish lang, hindi puwedeng maging main dish kasi kulang sa sustansya. katulad sa buhay may asawa, minsan merong mga taong pang side dish lang din. iyong mga nakikihati sa oras pagmamahal at atensiyon na dapat nauukol sa iba. enjoy kang kasama sila dahil gagawin nila ang lahat lahat para ma-satisfy ka, pero hindi ka magiging maaligaya dahil kulang sa tunay na sustansiya.
"kulang sa pagmamahal". libog lang yan! ika nga ng isang kaibigan kong balahura.

eh nakatikim na ba kayo ng "burong kapampangan"? alam nyo ba na panis na kanin yun, pinabulok kasama ang mga ingredients nya (isda, hipon o alamang) at kapag bulok na saka igigisa sa taba ng karneng baboy. OMG! promise para kang kumakain ng suka ng palaka, pero mabango at masarap siya kung "one time" lang titikman. pag inulit mo pa maduduwal ka na. lalo na yung burong kapampangan na made in mindoro, mabango at masarap kung isang beses lang titikman, pero nakakaduwal na pag uulitin mo pa.

paano daw naging related ang asawa sa ulam?...

wala lang:)

eh ang bagoong at kangkong?...

sila yun...

belong...

"We have to forget about some people from our past because of one simple reason...they just don't belong..in our future"

"bpatient"

We all suffer from one pain or the other but what we fail to understand is that pains always disciplines us. There are always better things in life, we just have to be patient."

ron:)

You must not Quit...

You Must not Quit

When things go wrong as they sometimes will
When the road you are trudging seems an uphill
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh

When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest, if you must but never quit!
Life is queer with it's twist and turns
As everyone of us sometimes learns
And many failures turns about
When we might have won, had we stuck it out?

Dont give up though the pace seems slow
You may succed with another blow
Success is failure turn inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt

And you never can tell how close you are
It maybe near when it seems so far
So, stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seems worst that you must not quit!

While Papa is Away...By Ivan Dayle Rafer

I just want to share it here...A poem composed by my 7 year old son, grade 1 pupil at Bautista Elementary School in Labo Camarines Norte.
He composed this poem, and wins the first prize for their United Nations program in the School:)

While Papa is Away

Papa left us to work abroad
Mama is here to care for us
They decided to live away from each other
Because they want the best for us..

I know that thousands of children are like us
With mother or father laboring in foreign lands
We all feel sad but there seems no choice
We simply have to accept things the way they are..

Now that Papa is thousand of miles away from us
I cannot but call on you
So while he is away from us
You do the caring and the comforting..

As to mama, we will make life easier for her
We will follow as she wishes us to do
So that when papa finally comes home
We'll be happy again under one roof...

Ivan Dayle Quimada Rafer
Grade I-A
Bautista Elementary School


Proud Daddy Ron:)

Ivan dayle is really smart and intelligent boy...mana sa mommy niya (partly...but mostly siyempre sa daddy)...
Class president, school representative/contestant for science and math quiz bee sa region 5, And he is the youngest ever to become officer of their school's student body...he became SBO councilor at the age of 5...and until now, he is still an SBO councilor...